Note to self

I read this book the other day called " the two lives of charlotte merryweather. it was pretty cheesy but theres something in this book that caught my attention.

So this woman goes back in time to meet her 23 year old self to give her some pointers, as it seems that 23 is when it all goes down hill for her. suprise suprise.. i am 23! umm i hope it doesnt get worse from here.

Anyway, It made me think of my life and what advice i may give my 16-18 year old self so that she doesnt stumble through her years unaware tripping over bad news, bad choices and bad suprises.



NOTES TO SELF:

Dear Cee,

1. You know that guy with the awesome motorcycle? ya with the cute smile who keeps telling you how beautiful you are. HE JUST WANTS TO GET IN YOUR PANTS.. he is also getting laid by the 'girlfriend' he apparently didnt have. luckily he didnt get into our pants but to save you from the heartbreak you felt when he just completley dropped you and never called you again after that "amazing kiss" i should tell you he's compensating!

2. do not go to that party on August 16 2002. When that bitch of an ex-bestfriend asks you if you want to go smoke a joint with her brothers or go to her 25 year old boyfriends apartment for a house party.. go home. please!!! this night changes your views on men, intimacy and trust. it will fuck up your next two relationships ROYALLY. go home and go to bed.. trust me there are many nights ahead of you where you will have the oppurtunity to get ridiculously drunk, this wasnt worth it.

3. Start doing your homework. yes i know your rolling your eyes like "whateverrrrr i have lots of time to pick up my gradesssss, i wanna go out with my girlsssssa" (done in a whiny valley girl voice) NO you dont have that much time to pick up your grades. and that boyfriend you just got with the motorcycle?. you and your damn motorcycle obsession!! HE CHEATS ON YOUR ASS. ya so you pretty much go from an 83% to a 72.3% for an ASSHOLE who is really not that attractive.. get your ass back to first period!!! i wanted to go to UofT god dammit!

4.facebook is the devil.

5. you are gorgeous!! no really you actually are! and on top of that your 118 pounds. GOD what i wouldnt give to be 118 ppounds again. enjoy it.. stop looking at the ground when you walk all shy and shit because you think your eyes are to big and your too tall blah blah blah. walk with your head up..look straight ... dont be afraid to wear shorts and skirts and high heels! seriously you'll be sorry if you dont cuz in about 5 years we gain 20 pounds! YA i know.

6. okay so in your first year of university you are going to sneak out of the house at 3am to "save tashas life". wake up mom and let her know, cuz what happens when she catches you walking back in through the back door at 5:00am is NOT pretty! theres a potatoe throwing incident.. i wont get into details... just tell mom.

7. Tasha is going to go through some shit after steve dies. try not to be so judgemental, you are not helping.. the only person who can help herself is herself. sorry hun but we cant fix this one!

8. So when that douche with the motorcycle cheats on you, you pretty much throw your entire second year of university out the window distraught with pain because you lost your virginity to a DOUCHEBAG. let me tell you something missy... your grade point average severly decreases because of this. you could have made honor role!!! but you dont, instead we spend the next two years trying to bump our grades up. then you see him again 4 years later and you think "THIS guy? " not worth it babe! (also i am seeing a pattern with our performance during breakups.... this needs to change)

9. DONT SMOKE! after italy you quit then start again. not cool my friend. you will A. never sing like you used to and B. you will smell all the time. then youll get these random scary thoughts like "is this a cold or did i finally get some disease because im a chain smoker?" just put the cancer sticks away! cuz now its near impossible to stop the urge to have one!

10. take photography and all the other stuff you wanted to learn. you wont find time for it later.

11. save your money. those $ 200 shoes end up breaking in a year anyway.

12. Tell nonno you love him.

13. you know that short story we love so much. well its gonna get you an A+ and the prof will suggest you publish it but you never do. well now i cant find the damn thing so be a doll and send it in will you? you'll never write something so close to truth.

14. wear your retainer please... we are right back where we started thanks to you.


15. glasses are sexy. wear those too, cuz i cant see shit. oh and the fact that you cant see is why you can always be seen falling over everything and breaking the good china. do everyone a favor with this one kay? thnx

16. When our sis alexa takes off you kinda get lost there for a while. she will come back, she needs to talk... talk to her. She has been through some shit that you dont even hear about until 6 years later. It will blow your mind. shes got a big heart... its just been up her ass for a while. help her get through it! she is going to help you with alot in the years to come!

17. KISS HIM!!!!!!! seriously! i know your shy and scared of what he'll think. but one day you'll regret not doing what you wanted when you wanted. the moments pass.. time never waits for you to catch up. so can you do all the stuff you wanted please?

18. trust your gut. that could have gotten us out of a lot of difficult situations.

19. Be honest. Dont lie about your grades and attempt to change them on your report card with white out to make it look like your 63's are 83's. it works mind you and we get an awesome jacket out of it from our parents because they are just so proud of us.... but you will feel SO guilty after that. just tell the truth





Sincerly,
Connie

p.s. no being 23 and having a full time job with a car is NOT as cool as you thought it would be.. on a plus note though... your curfew goes out the window this year. WOHOO :)