You may have wondered, dear readers, where ive been... working like a fuckin elf on christmas thats where. Ive realizd over these past months that work is my number 1 priority. i got a job 6 months out of university, in the field i wanted... without any experience. I better make this work, i better do the best i can with the oppurtunities handed to me. and i do mean handed because if it weren't for my family i wouldnt be in this position now, i wouldnt have been able to afford schooling on my own.
So the story i tell you now should be read in the context of the all the facts. I love my fam.. no buts.... but with so many personalities roaming around it gets hard to find breathing room.
It all started on Halloween weekend because of this....
This my costume for Halloween, i was a Nascar driver. I got dressed at my dads house, when he wasn't home obviously. Not because i thought i looked like a whore but because i just dont think its appropriate to waltz out of the house in shorts and thigh high boots in front of your dad.
But let the truth be known right now, im a classy lady. This years been sorta heavy for me and i wanted to let loose and have some fun. I splurged on those boots, and felt hot wearing them!
Anyways, that night as i walked out of the door wearing said costume, my step mom caught a glipse of my outfit and announced " EW connie you look like a fuckin hooker, thats disgusting. ew yuck, gross" i sighed and continued on my way out of the house.
Let me tell you something about my step mom. Shes a great human being who i love, respect and admire. She is also going bat shit crazy. Since she stopped working she has entered this spiriual stage of her life where she believes in connecting with source energy and meditation.... cool, i agreed with most of the things she believes in. I agree with the power of positive energy, and living in the now. It all makes sense and even if i didnt, i would still respect her beliefs.
BUT she has become a very negative person while preaching about positivity. She has acted in ways that have made me question the individual i admired and looked up to, and made me wonder if that individual and the life lessons she passed on to me, were things i should have taken with a grain of salt.
So she told my dad about my outfit, she then e-mailed me some extremely hateful things so i blocked her e-mail adress and went to my dads last night to hang out with my sis. As i was leaving the house my dad decides he wants to talk to me about my halloween coustume... heres the thrown down:
i dont mean to wash dirty laundry outside the home, but i would like to tell the story in its entirety and would like to hear your thoughts as well. Maybe im just beaing stubborn, but i honestly believe im right.
Dad: Ya listen i would like to know why you would go out wearing something that makes you look like a hooker
Me: im 24 years old, ive been dressing my self for years now, i felt comfortable wearing what i wore so i wore it, and i dont think there was anything wrong with it. I will wear what i want, when i want.
Dad: Really? well if thats how you feel then your on your own
Me: so your kicking me out because of what i wore for halloween? thats a bit extreme no?
Dad: NO... IM HAVING A CONVERSATION WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO SELF RESPECT
Me theres no reason to yell, im not yelling. I buy my own clothes, i pay my bills, i work and make good money. dad you have no right to even try and tell me what i can and cannot wear, you have no grounds for that. My body, my clothes, my choice.
Step Mom: oh so you choose to look like a hooker? why dont you go get your costume and show your dad what you looked like.
Me: and you, dont e-mail me anymore. Ive blocked your e-mails if you have something to say say it now. No more hiding behind a computer screen Why dont you go print out the vile things that you send to me and alexa and read it infront of my father.
SM: HOW DARE YOU TALK TO ME LIKE THAT. i RAISED YOU.
Dad: you really have a chip on your fuckin shoulder you know that. DO YOU KNOW THAT
And then my dad hit me. yup. flat out bitched slapped me. Not hard, no marks or anything. Then i left, went out with alexa for the evening, and came back to my moms.
He called my mom after i left and told her he hit me and i left to go out drinking.....so he thinks im a lush too. beautiful! i actually watched a movie last night.. and no believe it or not i didnt bring a mickey of vodka with me to the theater!
so today im looking for apartments. Im moving out. I think im too much for my parents to handle. Yes a university graduate, with a good job who is 80% self sufficient.... is apparently just too much to handle.
So im outtie. This post reads bitter, but im actually excited. I want to just get out on my own, i needed an excuse to leave quick and i got one.
Alexa got kicked out of the house last night by her mom (my step mom), through e-mail of course, so we are moving out together. looks like 2010 is gonna end in a completley different way then it started... what a fuckin year.
wish me luck guys... and what do you think about the costume... in ALL honesty.... too much?
5 comments:
good luck and you can do it! Sorry it was because of a negative note that the change had to come though :( I absolutely heart the costume! I see nothing wrong with it at all. :)
I am so very sorry that this has happened to you. I can't imagine what you must have felt after your Dad slapped you. You're step mother has no right to throw "I raised you" at you like that.
Having been through the family/step family drama I can totally relate to all of what you went through!
Btw, you're costume was an awesome idea and you're totally gorgeous to begin with so I think for the sake of Halloween you were not in the wrong!
Check your email, I'm heading there now!
CBG
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Answer me this; what would she have said if u dresses as Julia Roberts from Pretty Woman? Bet she liked that movie, it's a classic. Anyway the point I am tryna make is that in the sprit of Hollween was your coutmue not acceptable? Isn't it about fantasy? No real mother actually chucks their own child out of the house. I have two step parents who I have NEVER seen eye to eye with and I have never been chucked. NEVER. and there have been plenty blow ups. One word - DRAMA... Can u see me rolling my eyes? Everything happens for a reason and 24 is a good age to get ur own place. U will never regret it. It's dead awesome. Things will settle down and when they do, lead by example, it's the only way ;)
thanks for the comments guys!!! i completely agree, this is going to be an adventure, a new little chapter and yes unfortunatly it was on a bad note but everything passes with time and this will too!! plus 24 is the age i always said i would move out at, so it kinda worked out!!
So I waited a while to comment on this one to save myself from looking like a perv of some sort. But um...yeah. You are gorgeous. Love the costume. Admiring from a distance.
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