I have nothing really big to say for today other than its thursday and i have a date that i am actually excited about! but i will tell you guys about it tomorrow with all the deats!
So yesterday i got a call from natasia. You remember in my mish mash post i told you guys about how me and natasia think that attraction is important in a relationship and our friend Tania disagrees? okay well Tania has just gotten herself into a relationship with a guy that she doesnt find physically attractive.
She has admitted this to natasia and so natasia asked her " why would you settle." see for me settling is the scariest idea. My mom settled, this sounds like a horrible thing to say but she admitted it herself. One day me and my mom were sitting at the kitchen table gossiping and she said these words " i always thought that there was a soulmate for everyone, i never found mine"
Hearing those words almost made me cry. Because my mom is grogeous but her and tania are alot alike. For whatever reason they do not see themselves the way everyone else does. They dont think that they could find someone who they think is attractive mentally and physically and who will think the same of them in return.
So i have a fear that i may sell myself short, that i may make excuses for someone and convince myself that the person is good for me even when they aren't out of some fear that i wont find better. Its what my mom did. She was a single mother struggling to keep up a new home when she met my step dad, and she tried to convince everyone that she was happy. She tried to convince even her own sister who told her straight up, this guy isnt the one, you guys just dont click.
But my mom married that guy, and then years later pretty much admitted that she didnt feel he was her soulmate. My mom has never seen herself the way others do, she always says to me " look at my beautiful daughter. i did pretty well considering"
considering what mom! so in this post i would like to introduce my beautiful mom! funny enough alot of people think we look alike, its a big compliment i think. So isnt it funny that she thinks im beautiful but doesnt recognize that beauty when she looks in the mirror?
So whatever thats alls i gots to say for today.
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